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A poem by me, Susie Raffey, about things I see.

11.17.19 later

As it turned out, my assistance today was not needed, And some old advice I had heard, I heeded – “Too many cooks in the kitchen,” or something like that, So I asked my brother to take me back, I have a lot to do before I pack, Oh wait – pack? That I don’t have to do, Because of everything I need, I now have two.

One here and one there, Except when it comes to under-wear, it’s more like ten pair. Even my bible and Amazon fire stick, I ordered both on Prime and they got here quick.

But anyway, Like I was about to say, It worked out how it was supposed to – today, Even the bulletin, it was meant to be that way, And so Adam thought it was Wednesday. It was God’s way of speaking to me, He knew that was what I needed to see. And thank you Sharon, for your text, I hope your day is super-blessed!

11.17.19

This morning it was crystal clear, I could respond in love or react in fear. I awoke with an attitude, That unfortunately, was very rude, I thought, “I don’t have time to help decorate, Because once again, I am running late. Behind schedule, I am, on all I wanted done Before heading to Florida and soaking up the sun.” But now, I am ecstatic to say, That my mood did not stay that way, And grateful, I am, to know better today And to say to myself – “HEY! It’s okay. Stop reacting in fear, start responding in love And look for help from heaven above. So I did and it’s been a much better day, And don’t worry guys, the Christmas Cheer Squad is on the way!

11.16.19

To the football game, I was not going to go, And then I realized, it could be the last one with my bro. A play-off game, it was last night, And the Waurika Eagles were out of sight! I am very glad went, even though it also meant I did not get to my poem, but my jewelry mess, I made a dent.

So yes, there will be another game since they won, But I will be in Florida soaking up the sun. I will be back though in just two weeks, And I hope to be in the stands and jump up on my feet When the cheerleaders command the Eagles’ fans with their beat!

11.15.19

I wrote and recorded my poem yesterday, But before I sent it on its way, I decided there were things I should not say And so I shut down my computer and went to bed.

I started writing about staying in the “now,”  But majorly got off-track and I do not know how I did not see the big black cow Or so I mean a white elephant?

Well today it has been bugging me, I feel I let myself down, don’t you see, Those of you in my family tree, I’m sorry.

I am sorry if say something you’d rather I not, I am sorry if I embarrass or put you on the spot, I am sorry for other things that I have forgot

And I hope you can get over it.

I need to do this for me, Writing the poem in an under an hour, this is the key So it’s possible there will be things I do not see. This is my disclaimer.

Through this, I am becoming free To know who I am, and that, I shall be, And if you don’t want me to, I’ll quit for a fee, But until then, here I am, and I do hope you’ll watch.

I hope and I pray that you’ll let me be me And though we may not always agree, May we love each other without apology, And that I remember to let you be you, too.

11.13.19

I found myself feeling a little worried today And then a voice said inside my head HEY! Have you forgotten how you felt just the other day, You had a calm sense of peace and knew everything would be okay. Give no attention to the negative in your head, Turn that talk around, generate positive, it said, And if you’re having trouble putting circumstances to bed, Get on YouTube and listen to your favorite thought-leader instead!

(That would be Brendon Burchard by the way, Look him up whenever you need to brighten your day.)

So I started thanking God for Dave, he really is a dear, And I am thankful he knows all about responding in love or reacting in fear. For it has been such a blessing, his response to me staying here, He has been supportive and kind, even though he wants me near.

My thoughts then turned back to going to Ardmore, And the feeling crept in that it was some kind of chore. So I adjusted my perspective and prayed for my will no more, And I felt proud and humbled and thankful when I walked out the door.

If you know me, then you know I like to save the best for last, Which is the Thanksgiving Dinner we attended at noon – it was a blast! It was at the Hastings Senior Citizens Center, where we had quite a cast, There were so many I wanted to see but the time went by too fast.

I really love this town and so I am trying to figure it out – What we are going to do. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed and so I start to doubt That this, I will get through. But then God somehow reminds me that in Him I can trust, And that I can only live one moment at a time, and adjust my thinking to this, I must.

I do not know what our futures hold, if I will remain bold or if I’ll even grow old, but God does and He will let me know when I need to. Needing to know before then, just makes me blue.

11.12.19

Today we mostly chilled, quite literally.

We dreaded the drive to Duncan in the 27 degree weather Then we realized that the car was the warmest spot altogether. Cleaned out the car from our 9 day trip, we did that too, And now the house looks like a zoo. The cats don’t want us to leave again and they pout, They won’t leave me alone, they were on my nerves and I wanted to shout. Instead, I phoned a friend.

I told her nothing of my feline frustrations Because I have no doubt That when I’m dealing with this type of mood, It’s not really what it’s about. The cat did not create my seeming lack of care, It was not what set me off, My mood was already there. So I searched deep within me For what it was I feared and nothing could I see. And because I believe whatever we fear Can be countered completely with love, In the end, I phoned a friend.

11.11.19

We made it back to Hastings fine Although I thought it would be about 7 And it was more like 9 (eastern time).

It was raining in Dallas And the wind was fierce And my nerves, Google did pierce.

My maps app kept rerouting us, With no ability to discuss. “Accidents,” the voice would say, “You better go this way!”

“No,” I screamed, “that doesn’t make sense!” Leaving my brother in suspense. “Which way do I go,” He wanted to know, “Do you know where we are?” “No, Guess we listen to Google.”